is it worth it?
if you just dont care, nothing can ever go wrong. just stop yourself from loving anyone, trusting anyone, whatever. because what does it even mean anyway? youre happy as can be for a little bit then you put up with people making you feel like shit then its over. and youre so low you cant even remember what it was like being happy. you dont even want to live for anything. its nice having someone. having someone to love you, care where you are and who you are with, spend time with every single day. but is it even worth it? in the moment, you dont ever want to be anywhere else. but step back once youre feeling hurt and youll realize how stupid youve been. like damn, why would you ever put yourself in that position? they have your heart, and you depend on them. which means they have every capability to crush you. i, for one, do not want to put my happiness in someone elses hands. but honestly, when youre in the middle of it you cant even imagine anything that would make you leave. even the most logical thoughts wont break your little spell. everyone tells you that when you love someone, its worth fighting for no matter what the odds are. but no! youre setting yourself up for failure. for heartbreak. so no, its not worth it. whatever you do, dont let yourself care.
